Benji

The life I lived was hard

The choices I had were few

But God bestowed his grace

The day I gave birth to you

 

I'd never experienced love

Until I heard your newborn cry

I held you so close to me

And swore to you I would try

 

The things that went so wrong

I humbly take all the blame

I have lived all these years

Filled with guilt and shame

 

Sorry could never be enough

For all the damage done

I didn't deserve a beautiful boy

The day God gave me a son

 

Never once did I not love you

You've stayed within my heart

And I grieved for you each day

In the years we've been apart

 

My arms still ache to hold you

Even though you've become a man

I pray for love and forgiviness

Maybe someday, if you can

 

©S. Austin Vincoski