Labeled a stray and not heaven sent
Cowering inside your locked cage
Eight appeared with cruel intent
Nine, their leader, instigated rage
A family curse and carnage's bain
In your way, you each took a turn
Laughing, you minimized my pain
Screaming until my lungs would burn
Your perfect offspring breathed a sigh
Labeled me poison and all ran away
Society also turned their blind eye
Stepping over me silently as I lay
Maternal dead and paternal pretend
The other three relieved I was gone
Knowing the story, no matter the end
Their only blood, but all carried on
Siblings abused and practiced skill
Empty, I'm not anyone's anything
Dragging my life behind me uphill
Devoid of use, it's memories I bring
Craving a feeling so foreign to me
Love, a language I'd never heard
Horrendous acts committed to see
If I could hear that one sacred word
Love, three times found it's place
Inspired, I could nurture my own
Seeking freedom, all spit in my face
The world called, they were grown
Each found a future and their mate
Denied a part in the families they are
Longing imbued this fragile state
Seeing and feeling, always from afar
Empowering what is right and good
Validates from that moment of birth
Expected to be the person I should
As everyone stole my sense of worth
Abandoned, silence wrapped in chaos
Righteous with no regret displayed
Summed the total and all is a loss
They won as "unlovable" was made
Nightmares haunt the light of day
Tears soak the pillow when it's night
I run from myself and nowhere to stay
My side of the story, an endless plight
©S. Austin Vincoski
