Don't

Don't expect me to open my heart
When you know it's made of stone
Don't expect me to ever need you
You know I'd rather be alone
Don't expect me to wear a smile
As this face is just a mask
Don't expect me to give you answers
To questions you shouldn't ask
Don't expect me to be so human
For humanity is to blame
Don't expect to ever know me
I'm no one, without a name
Don't expect me to show emotion
Because I'm just numb inside
Don't expect me to live my life
When so long ago I died

©S. Austin Vincoski

Baby

My precious little baby

I love you more than words can say

But as I hold you in my arms

I watch your life just slip away

I have prayed for a miracle

Still, your will to live is gone

Tonight I'll rock you fast asleep

But you'll not awake at dawn

Your tiny little fingers move

The last move they'll ever make

And you breathe a little sigh

The last breath you'll ever take

Oh my precious little baby

You have been so dear to me

Your pain has finally ended

Your life was never meant to be

The tears trickle down my cheek

As I must kiss you goodbye

And this is more than I can bear

To watch my little baby die

These bittersweet memories

Will forever flood my mind

But for a grieving mother

No comfort will I ever find

My precious little angel

Has returned from where she came

The world will never know of her

But for this stone that bears her name

 

©S. Austin Vincoski

Happy Birthday

 

Momma it's your birthday soon

Almost the tenth of May

I haven't missed a one of them

Even though you've passed away

I look at faded photographs

Knowing they'll make me cry

You were so young and beautiful

So how could you possibly die

I sit and hold your babydoll

Its the only thing of yours I own

It helps me feel close to you

A longing I've not outgrown

I still read your letters, momma

I've memorized each page

And the telegraph that said you died

At only twenty two years of age

I don't have any memories

I was still just a baby then

But your family told me stories

That I wish I could hear again

Your grave is so far away

So I cant put flowers there

I wish I knew what kind you like

I wish you knew how much I care

Can you miss something you never had

Or love someone you never knew

All I know is it hurts me, momma

And I'll never stop needing you

So here's to another birthday

As the years just come and go

And the only gift I have is love

For the mother I will never know

 

©S. Austin Vincoski

Humanity

A refugee in my mother's womb
Tossed into a world of doom
Destiny of tears and pain
The child lost, the scars remain
Humanity, it's twisted grin
One soft touch sucks you in
Kind words with a forked tongue
Preach of love and eat your young
Wisdom is no match for fate
I wallow in your pool of hate
Uttering a silent scream
Possessor of a jaded dream
The suffering will never cease
My battered soul aches for peace
Am I the image of God's intent
Or sins of which there's no repent

©S. Austin Vincoski

My Friend

That's all we've ever known is hard
Walking down life's boulevard
The wrong turns we often made
Leaving scars for prices paid
Hand in hand, our heart as one
Together we would learn to run
We ran until we lost our mind
Chasing dreams we'll never find
So another year passed us by
Leaving us the urge to cry
We wandered roads without a name
Attempting life's feeble game
Mostly lost, but sometimes found
We tread on unfamiliar ground
I felt your presence at my side
Fate appointed you my guide
I'll find a path, you lead the way
We'll stumble through another day
The journey's long and hard I know
But I'm there whichever way you go
We may not ever find the end
My life was traveled with a friend

©S. Austin Vincoski